YAY!

My beta is on Friday.  I’m hoping for a good strong number!

Clear Blue Digital - 7dp5dtTop: 6dp5dt @ 12noon // Bottom: 7dp5dt @ 9AM

And oh how I envy my husband who seemed to have slept like a baby last night, although now, he is napping happily about 3 feet away from me. *sigh*

Symptom Check:

• Boobs seem oddly *less* sore today.  :(
• Temperature hell.  Alternating sweats and chills like crazy.
• Still very tired.

• sore boobs
• very tired
• tight abdomen
• dizziness

I must say the dizziness is something new.  It’s not too bad, but more pronounced than I’ve ever noticed before.  I did see that lots of people attribute it to the meds, so I’m not too excited.

In fact, I looked back at my last cycle (BFN) and checked the symptoms and there is basically no difference.  I really do know better than to obsess over them, so why do I do this?  I have no idea!

I bought some pee sticks yesterday, so maybe I will POAS tomorrow morning (6dp5dt).  I’m going to try and hold out until 9dp5dt, but having the pee sticks around is going to be hard.

So I’m feeling kind of “blah” because I don’t really feel pregnant.  I thought that during my positive cycle I felt it more.  Oh well, cycles are different – this is a FET, with DE, and a different set of meds than the positive cycle, so I really shouldn’t compare.  Ugh. yada yada yada.

Symptom Check:

• Sore boobs
• Slight cramps and twinges
• Elevated temperature (this I’m going by feeling alone, I didn’t measure)
• Very tired

There is one symptom that I’m kind of waiting for, looking for…The Ache. To me, it’s the only symptom that exists during my BFP that I didn’t have on my BFN’s. It could be my imagination, but I feel as though it might be starting…we’ll see. I do feel a very slight ache down there. But on the other hand, that pregnancy didn’t succeed in the end, so I hope it doesn’t signify something bad will happen again. Ugh – this wait is really hard.

ETA: Symptoms to add:

Frequent urination
Strong sense of smell!!

I nearly vomitted in the restaurant bathroom when I walked in and noticed the super strong cleaning fluid smell. Ugh. I hope that’s a good sign!!!

I started the day feeling my usual nervous pre-transfer self.  I nearly chickened-out and almost cancelled my acupuncture appointment before and after the transfer, but DH talked me into going.  I’m glad I did, because it was very relaxing.

DH dropped me off at the location where the acupuncture and transfer were to take place.  He went to Best Buy. hee hee  I had a good 30 minutes of relaxation before the transfer and then I started my drinking of liquids to fill up by bladder.  I managed to get in a full 24 ounces and it ended up being perfect.

The doctor came into the room about 10 minutes late which made us worry just a little bit.  I was worried that something was wrong with the embryos, but kept talking myself out of it knowing that they’d tell me that surely beforehand.

The transfer itself went without a hitch.  My RE said I did a “beautiful job” getting my bladder full and prepared for transfer.  The full bladder made my uterus sufficiently flattened to allow for an easy transfer.  Interesting!

I had to pee so badly afterwards though.  Whoa.  I never felt such relief going to the bathroom in my life.  haha

Not much more to tell – I’m sitting on the sofa watching TV.  Let the 2WW begin!

I have another injection tonight. In about a week or so, I will be adding progesterone to the mix in the form of daily PIO shots. The hormonal imbalances that we go through during IVF sometimes really takes a toll on me. I just have to follow the advice of one woman in the support group who said to take a step back, and look at the big picture. Rather than focusing on the little things, try to see what the big end goal is, and focus on that instead. I think that is excellent advice!

Would you believe that my backside is still feeling the effects of the injections for December?!  I took my last injection on December 23rd, but I still feel the soreness (a little) in my backside!  Pretty incredible.  Oh well, the shots start up again on Tuesday so no time to waste.

I know one thing is for sure – I must be sure to drink plenty of water before my transfer this time.  Last time, I tried to get away with drinking less, and it backfired.  They had a hard time finding a good spot in my uterus because my bladder wasn’t full enough.  They did eventually find a spot and they were happy about it, but it was quite uncomfortable.  It’s tricky to get just the right amount of fluids in – not too much so that your dancing, but enough.

Here we go – things are rolling now!

Today is a blistery cold day in Baltimore.  The wind-chill factor is in the teens for sure.  I was bundled up with my down coat and scarf and walked two blocks to Chipotle.  After I ate, I left the restaurant and immediately saw a dog tied to a parking meter.  The dog was beginning to cry in a way that was really sad and distressed.  The dog was shivering as well (who wouldn’t in this weather) and as I made my way past him, his cries grew stronger and louder.  By the time I got to the end of the block, I broke down into tears and began sobbing.  I turned the corner and walked a few more feet and still heard the dog crying and I continued to cry harder too.  I finally decided to go back and find the owner and tell them “WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH YOU LEAVING A DOG OUTSIDE IN THIS FREEZING COLD WEATHER?!?!” and then I noticed the cries had stopped.  By the time I turned the corner, I saw the young woman with her Subway sandwich bag dangling from her wrist and she was untying the dog.

WHEW.

Although this was great – I still couldn’t stop crying.  What the heck?  I finally calmed myself down and realized – was the Junel affecting me???

Hm….

Luckily AF showed up right on schedule and I didn’t have to wait a moment longer to get started again.  Three weeks from now, I’ll be dusting off the syringes (or rather, my husband will) and we’ll start with the Delestrogen shots every 3 days.  I’ll get my baseline bloodwork and ultrasound done, and as long as my lining is in good shape, we’ll get one embie thawed and transferred by the end of January.